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  • Published: 6 May 2021
  • ISBN: 9781473575370
  • Imprint: Vintage Digital
  • Format: EBook
  • Pages: 256

F**k, I think I'm Dying

How I Learned to Live With Panic



An intimate, honest and ultimately uplifting exploration into panic attacks.

"An electric, warm, comforting and funny handbook on panic and how to cope and live alongside it. Accessible, reassuring, practical and relieving." Laura Dockrill

"I wish I had this book when I was 18 and having panic attacks. It's smart, witty, informative and importantly, it lets you know that if you have panic attacks too... you are not alone." Dr Sophie Mort


An uplifting, personal account on living with panic and how to stop it defining you.

'You're dying. F**k, you're having a heart attack, or is this a stroke? You're going crazy, you are right this second losing your mind. It's game over. Get out' All the work I'd put into preparing for this interview, my job, my career, money, future - it all seemed insignificant next to the burning desire to get out of the room and run.

Award-winning blogger and author of We're All Mad Here, Claire Eastham is an expert on panic. She's not a doctor or an academic, but over a seven-year period, she has experienced 371 panic attacks (and counting), and learnt a thing or two along the way.

Part memoir, part guide, F**k I Think I'm Dying is an intimate, honest and ultimately uplifting exploration into panic attacks. In practical thematic chapters Claire covers the crisis points where panic can hit: job interviews, social situations, attacks at night. She interviews a host of people - scientists, professors, dieticians, psychologists and people who struggle with panic - to anatomise how panic works and how it can be managed.

Frank, funny and blazing, Claire's story will speak to all those seeking to reclaim their power. With a little work and understanding, panic attacks do not have to control you.

  • Published: 6 May 2021
  • ISBN: 9781473575370
  • Imprint: Vintage Digital
  • Format: EBook
  • Pages: 256

About the author

Claire Eastham

Claire Eastham is a Manchester-based author, award-winning mental health blogger, campaigner and keynote speaker. Regarded as one of the UK’s foremost mental health bloggers, Claire’s witty and self-deprecating sense of humour has seen her attract thousands of readers to her blog, We’re All Mad Here. Claire’s first book of the same name sold out its entire first print run in just five days and was selected for Reading Well Books on Prescription in 2018. Claire is an ambassador for the mental health research charity, MQ, and has regularly appeared on TV and radio, including appearances on This Morning, BBC Breakfast, and across BBC Radio.

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Praise for F**k, I think I'm Dying

An electric, warm, comforting and funny handbook on panic and how to cope and live alongside it. Accessible, reassuring, practical and relieving.

Laura Dockrill

I wish I had this book when I was 18 and having panic attacks. It's smart, witty, informative and importantly, it lets you know that if you have panic attacks too... you are not alone.

Dr Sophie Mort

It made me laugh, cry and warmed my heart. Filled with nuggets of wisdom.

Ruth Cooper Dickson