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  • Published: 1 February 2016
  • ISBN: 9781785032745
  • Imprint: Del Rey
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 288
  • RRP: $19.99

Find Me

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A literary dystopian debut novel for fans of Kazuo Ishiguro and Margaret Atwood

Things I will never forget: my name, my made-up birthday…The dark of the Hospital at night. My mother’s face, when she was young.
Things other people will forget: where they come from, how old they are, the faces of the people they love. The right words for bowl and sunshine…What is a beginning and what is an end.

Joy spends her days working the graveyard shift at a store outside Boston and nursing an addiction to cough syrup, an attempt to suppress her troubled past. But when a sickness that begins with silver blisters and memory loss and ends with death sweeps the country, Joy, for the first time in her life, seems to have an advantage: she is immune.

Laura van den Berg's critically acclaimed debut novel is at once a hauntingly beautiful portrayal of a dystopian future and a powerful exploration of loneliness.

  • Pub date: 1 February 2016
  • ISBN: 9781785032745
  • Imprint: Del Rey
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 288
  • RRP: $19.99

About the Author

Laura van den Berg

Laura van den Berg was raised in Florida. Her first collection of short stories, What the World Will Look Like When All the Water Leaves Us, was a Barnes & Noble Discover Great New Writers selection and a finalist for the Frank O’Connor International Short Story Award. Her second collection of stories, The Isle of Youth , received the Rosenthal Family Foundation Award for Fiction from the American Academy of Arts and Letters. Find Me is her first novel. She lives in the Boston area.

Praise for Find Me

“A beautiful and compelling read”

Ann Patchett

“One of the most freakishly talented young writers at work today”

Karen Russell

“pleasingly strange ... impressively original”

The New York Times Book Review

“Original piece of dystopian fiction...disturbing and thought provoking...”

Daily Mail

“a distinctive new voice…original…intoxicating”


“Spellbinding. . . Find Me is crafted to be consumed in small sips, though with a novel so full of mystery and surprise, the temptation is to gulp…”

O, The Oprah Magazine

“A fresh spin on apocalyptic stories, Find Me beautifully evaluates memory loss and the stories we tell ourselves”

Huffington Post

“A timeless chronicle of self-discovery…unforgettable…”

Time Out

“A haunting exploration of loneliness”

Marie Claire

“Laura van den Berg is the best young writer in America”

Claire Cameron, author of The Bear, Salon

“[Laura’s stories are ]… uniformly excellent - emotionally complex, very raw - but always with a mixture of pathos and humour that made me think of Lorrie Moore”

Dave Eggers

“Sad, eerie, smart, cynical and heartbreaking”

Robin Wasserman

“This elegiac debut novel … lingers and aches in the memory”

The Guardian

“A must read”

Stylist Magazine

“This is a thoughtful, touching story about survival—about finding ways to heal and reasons to live.”


“In understated prose, Laura creates Joy’s distorted and strange world. As we enter into that fictional world, we see that it reflects, in many ways, the real world where we find ourselves today. And in Joy’s loneliness and desire to connect, we recognize ourselves.”

The Los Angeles Review of Books


Vanity Fair

“hauntingly beautiful . . . Don’t miss this remarkable book”


“steeped in the anxieties of our era”

New York Times

“[a] brilliant and claustrophobic novel”


“one to watch out for”

The Independent

“A very impressive, must read for fans of STATION ELEVEN, so unsettling but subtle too. I loved FIND ME…”

Eva Dolan

“a moving, and frequently funny, exploration of character and of trauma”


“a moving, and frequently funny, exploration of character and of trauma”


“so compelling ... an unforgettable debut”

Irish Independent

“a wonderful read”

Nina Allan, Interzone

“Like Margaret Atwood’s The Handmaid’s Tale or Kazuo Ishiguro’s Never Let Me Go, van den Berg’s debut novel presents a frighteningly plausible near-future dystopia grounded in human elements… heartbreakingly real and compellingly wrought”

Library Journal

“Find Me, her transfixing first novel, is in keeping with her short stories thematically, and yet, in its deep soundings, it’s a commanding departure. . . Van den Berg’s enveloping novel of a plague and a seeker in an endangered world reveals what it feels like to grow up unwanted and unknown in a civilization hell-bent on self-destruction. It is also a beautifully strange, sad, and provocative inquiry into our failure to love, cherish, and protect. But ultimately, Find Me is a delving story of courage, persistence, and hope”


“In Find Me, van den Berg depicts a life slowly coming into focus—it’s blurry and impressionistic at times, sometimes deliriously scattered. But out of the fog of memory and the haze of drugs emerges a sense of clarity that’s deep and moving and real”

The Boston Globe

“From this memorable novel's eerie first paragraph to its enigmatic ending, Laura van den Berg has invented something beautiful indeed”

LA Times

“This is one of my favorite novels of 2015, and we’re not even IN 2015 yet . . .The language is beautiful, spare, and carefully crafted, and the characters are fully realized and unforgettable. There is tension and redemption and insight and even humor in these pages, and they make for a really incredible read”


“Surreal adventures blend with a reflective and sad sensibility in van den Berg’s lyrical debut novel”

Library Journal

“Both novels offer precision of language and metaphor and scene even as what is being constructed feels messy, chaotic, sad, hopeless... Both orphaned and alone in the world, both so completely real, both telling a story that feels important and exciting to read. I feel lucky to have stumbled upon these books this year, and challenged by them to be better”

The Millions

“This debut novel by acclaimed short story writer van den Berg tends to lean much closer to the realms of literary fiction with its complex psychology. . . Van den Berg's writing is curiously beautiful”


“a strange beauty in this apocalyptic tale”


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