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  • Published: 23 April 2020
  • ISBN: 9781473575226
  • Imprint: Vintage Digital
  • Format: EBook
  • Pages: 352

What Have I Done?





A raw, honest and conversation-starting story of postpartum psychosis, and making it through one of the most frightening experiences a new parents can face

'Such a raw, honest and important book' Giovanna Fletcher

Like any new mum, Laura Dockrill felt rather overwhelmed after the birth of her son. But a slow recovery, sleep deprivation and anxiety quickly escalated into postpartum psychosis, and she had to spend a fortnight in a psych ward, separated from her family. It was only when Laura began to put her ordeal into words that she began to find herself again, and recovery seemed within reach.

This is Laura's raw, honest and life-affirming story of how she made it through one of the most frightening experiences a mother can face. Now, she wants to break down the silence around postnatal mental health, shatter the idealised expectations of perfect motherhood, and show all new struggling parents that they are not alone.

'A book to save a whole generation of women' Adele

A pleasure to read...I didn't want to put it down. If anyone is going through a similar experience it will make them feel less alone' Philippa Perry

'A humbingly honest and human war report from the front lines of mothering psychosis and recovery; there is no other book like it' Caitlin Moran

'An incredibly powerful book' Jessie Ware

'This book will give women and their families confidence that the brain and body will heal' Dr Jessica Heron, CEO of Action on Postpartum Psychosis

'An amazing read' Fiona Telford, postpartum psychosis survivor

  • Published: 23 April 2020
  • ISBN: 9781473575226
  • Imprint: Vintage Digital
  • Format: EBook
  • Pages: 352

About the author

Laura Dockrill

'Wow, what a stormer! It's wonderful to have the voice of someone as young and as funny in the children's books world' Michael Rosen

Everyone’s falling for Laura Dockrill’ VOGUE.

Named one of the top ten literary talents by The Times and one of the top twenty hot faces to watch by ELLE magazine, Laura is a young, talented writer/illustrator who is a graduate of the Brits School of Performing Arts.
She has performed her work at the Edinburgh Fringe, Camp Bestival, Latitude, Bookslam and the Soho Theatre, and on Woman’s Hour, The Jo Whiley show, Newsnight, BBC Breakfast and each of the BBC’s respective radio channels 1-6. She has been a roaming reporter for the Roald Dahl Funny Prize, run workshops at the Imagine children's literature festival on the South Bank, and is on the advisory panel at the Ministry of Stories.

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