Waking Up in Toytown
The sequel to the award-winning A Lie About My Father
In the early 80s, after a decade of drug abuse and borderline mental illness, a man runs away to the suburbs, to live what he hopes will be a normal life. With the aid of his last remaining friends he finds a regular job, goes to AA meetings and resolves to ‘disappear into the banal’ – to escape his addictive personality and find a ‘Surbiton of the mind’– but he can’t seem to outrun his own demons and, before long, he is back where he started.
The suburbs, though, are not quite as normal as he had imagined and, as he relapses into chaos, he encounters a homicidal office worker who is obsessed with Alfred Hitchcock and Petula Clark, an old lover, with whom he reprises a troubled, masochistic relationship and, finally, the seemingly flesh-and-blood embodiments of all his private phantoms – as he drifts further and further into unreality.
The sequel to his haunting, celebrated account of a troubled childhood, A Lie About My Father, John Burnside’s startling new memoir follows his hopeless quest for peace and mental security as the ghosts and terrors close in and the illusion of Surbiton falls apart. Unsettling, touching, oddly romantic and unflinchingly honest, this is the story of one man’s search for sanity – but it is also, in its own way, the true story of an impossible, unmanageable love.
Praise for Waking Up in Toytown
Beautifully written and observed memoir ... an affecting book from a writer of manifest talent; a compellingly readable memoir possessed of a genuine spiritual and intellectual depthAdam O'Riordan, Sunday Telegraph
A larger and more generous book ... the precision and beauty of his language is like a proof of his achievement - a kind of higher sanityAida Eiderman, Guardian
Most lucid and poetic of memoirsJane Shilling, Daily Telegraph
Burnside may not find himself convincing, but this complex, considered piece of work certainly isDoug Johnstone, Independent
There is no truer writer than John Burnside...the flow of his memory and consciousness, his balance between flying and vanishing, the hypnotism of his language, the poised wondering about the narratives which come together to comprise a sense of our lives. [a] searching enquiry into a life: bruised, filled with grace and as plangent and haunting as any plainsong.Catherine Lockerbie, Scotsman
Hauntingly written ... a gripping, often humours account of the world of the functioning alcoholic ... stunningly exact proseBee Wilson, Sunday Times
A brilliant portrait of isolation...this sophisticated study of the human mind argues for our right "to continue in the pursuit of whole-heartedness. To be not-normal after all"Fiona Sampson, Independent
''beautifully written and observed'' new memoir... He writes about ''squalor and desperation'' with ''precision and beauty''The Week
Burnside's memoir deserves to become a classic. Has anyone written about the direct experience of mental illness with such scrupulous observation and wit?Daily Express
Disturbing, powerful memoirSunday Times
One of the best memoirs I've read for agesWilliam Leith, Spectator
[Burnside has a] poetic eye for language and image...[a] non-judgemental, ultimately redemptive search for some sort of meaning among the shifting sands of madness and sanityClaire Allfree, Metro
This is an extraordinary book and one so honest it scorchesCarlo Gebler, Irish Times
From the very first page, arrestingly headed 'The Epilogue,' Burnside's memoir is absorbing.Guardian
Burnside is an utterly original authorHarry Eyres, Financial Times