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  • Published: 12 June 2022
  • ISBN: 9781787635463
  • Imprint: Bantam Press
  • Format: Hardback
  • Pages: 304
  • RRP: $45.00

Never Will I Die

  • Toby Gutteridge


The powerful and deeply moving account of a Special Forces operator who suffered life changing injuries in Afghanistan. A raw and honest tale of modern soldiering, and a manifesto for overcoming adversity and appreciating what really matters in life.

There's no pain, no theatrical agony. No screaming, no shouting. The kill shot is catastrophic, yet surgically precise. I slumped silently on to my knees and toppled forward, head first, into the dirt. The lads had seen enough death to assume mine was instantaneous. The lights were out. That's him gone.

Tobias Gutteridge was only 24 when he was shot through the neck while operating behind enemy lines in Afghanistan. He survived despite not breathing for at least 20 minutes. Doctors in the UK recommended that his life support machine should be switched off. It wasn't.

Now quadriplegic, capable of movement only with his head, Toby has rebuilt his life. His is an extraordinary story of survival against overwhelming odds, and of the power of the human spirit. Brutally honest and authentic, he builds a compelling picture of the type of person produced by the Special Forces system, of his career in the military elite, and of how one split second changed the course of his life forever.

Powerful and inspiring, Never Will I Die explores what extreme experience teaches us about what really matters.

  • Published: 12 June 2022
  • ISBN: 9781787635463
  • Imprint: Bantam Press
  • Format: Hardback
  • Pages: 304
  • RRP: $45.00

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