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  • Published: 24 October 2016
  • ISBN: 9781784162337
  • Imprint: Black Swan
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 400
  • RRP: $25.00

I Want To Live

The Diary of a Young Girl in Stalin's Russia



The Soviet Russian DIARY OF ANNE FRANK.

Does that boy like me? Why are my sisters so mean? Does anyone think I'm pretty? Will my father be arrested? These were the everyday concerns of thirteen-year-old Moscow schoolgirl Nina Lugovskaya, who began to write a diary in 1932. Her indignant outbursts against the brutal raids and purges of Stalin's terror appear alongside the more typical adolescent worries about girlfriends, boys, parties and homework.
For five years Nina scribbled down her most intimate thoughts and dreams, including her ambition one day to become a writer. Then in 1937 the NKVD, Stalin's secret police, ransacked Nina's home and discovered her diary. Nina's criticism of the regime provided sufficient evidence for the charge of treason, and she, her mother and two sisters were sentenced to five years' hard labour in the Gulag, followed by seven years' exile in Siberia.
Recently Nina's diary was discovered in the KGB archives, complete with the original passages underlined by the secret police. Like Anne Frank's diary, this journal poignantly reveals life at a time of political upheaval, betrayal and repression through the eyes of an innocent.

  • Published: 24 October 2016
  • ISBN: 9781784162337
  • Imprint: Black Swan
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 400
  • RRP: $25.00

About the author

Nina Lugovskaya

Nina Lugovskaya was born in Moscow on 13th December 1918 into a family of first generation intellectuals. She survived her imprisonment and became a painter, but she never wrote again. She died in 1993, just after the end of the USSR.

Praise for I Want To Live

Could do for the Russian experience of Stalin's terror what Anne Frank's The Diary of a Young Girl did for worldwide understanding of the Holocaust.

Lesley Chamberlain, Financial Times

Nina's diary is touching: it will strike both teenage and adult readers with a terrible pang of recognition . . . Where she does touch on politics, her views are, it must be said, remarkably mature and intelligent . . . she is a shrewd commentator.

Charlotte Hobson, Daily Telegraph

Could do for the horrors of Stalinism what the diary of Anne Frank did for the Holocaust . . . the tragedy of Nina Lugovskaya is that a lively, compellingly ordinary girl was made to suffer so grievously for being so human.

Time magazine

An astonishingly well-written and perceptive chronicle.

The Times

Riveting, if painful, reading...singularly moving...Her diary has inspired comparisons with Anne Frank - and rightfully so.

Daily Mail

Remarkably well informed and perspicacious...a monument to a girl's reckless defiance of indoctrination and intimidation.

Literary Review

Carries poignant echoes of Anne Frank's diary. Both offer an innocent young girl's perspective on horrifying world events . . . but the essential difference is that Nina's diary was the reason for her arrest.

Mail on Sunday

Extraordinarily frank and eloquent diary [which] proved to be her undoing . . . Modern readers will be struck not only by Nina's perceptiveness and intelligence, the elegance with which she could write when her adolescent gloom lifted, her confused feelings for her father, her interest in current events and the well-informed hostility she nurtured for the Bolseheviks - but also by the sheer recklessness of her act of self-expression.

Times Literary Supplement

Nina's is an account of a stifled teenage life in a time of terror, a tale of fear and self-loathing...it is extraordinary that such an account should have reached us at all...There is some excellent reportage about food shortages...some unfathomably well-informed commentary on the famine in Ukraine; dangerous personal delight in the murder of a Politburo member...Nina's depression and angst were seen as signs of criminal degeneracy and the idea that her most intimate, self-sabotaging thoughts were also there to be policed now seems almost heartbreaking.

Observer

A poignant and ultimately tragic diary that recounts what it was like to grow up in Stalin's Soviet Union has been hailed as Russia's answer to Anne Frank.

Sunday Herald

Will capture the imagination of teenagers and help them understand the 1930s in the same way as Anne Frank's diaries have helped students to understand the Holocaust. If you read a book like this you're touching the past. It brings the period to life in a way that nothing else does.

Sunday Tribune