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  • Published: 5 March 2024
  • ISBN: 9781761342738
  • Imprint: Penguin Life
  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 224
  • RRP: $32.99

Beautiful Chaos

On Motherhood, Finding Yourself and Overwhelming Love


I was Told

I was told my world would change.

I was told my house would change.

I was told I wouldn’t sleep.

I was told I’d lose my sanity and myself.

I was told my body would change.

And so would my bank balance.

I was told my life would change.

But they forgot to tell me I would change.

And I did.

In the best way.

Because of you.


Maybe they were saving the best for last.

My Everything

I want to tell you everything I know,

carry you and guide you.

Yet somehow,

as your tiny finger points to things in wonder

and your eyes meet mine,

the paradigm shifts.

I once thought I was to show you the world,

when all along you came to show me.


Not 'Just'

You are not ‘just’ anything

Not just a woman

Or just a friend

A wife

A partner

Or just a mother

You are a universe

Made up of waves that brought life

Stars that hold dreams

Landscapes of home

Rocks that will crumble but will always remain

The wind’s gentle sway, and strongest roar

You are someone’s ‘all’

And ‘all’ is not lost

You are a mother

But never, just.

Beautiful Chaos Jessica Urlichs

The Instant Sunday Times BestsellerSelected poems from bestselling author and Instagram poet, Jessica Urlichs.'These words awaken the magic of life by celebrating the ordinary.' - Giovanna Fletcher

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Christmas Eve. I’m sitting in Cafe Flore in San Francisco.


These days the origin of the universe is explained by proposing a Big Bang, a single event that instantly brought into being all the matter from which everything and everyone are made.


That I have my own lawn sprinkler has never quite dawned on me


Zeus sits on his throne.

The Myth of Normal

In the most health-obsessed society ever, all is not well.

No Excuses: My Story

One morning in March 2014, I woke up and wondered just how the hell I’d got here. I was sleeping on a mattress on the floor of a one-room sleep-out at a community home in South Auckland, with rapists and drug addicts as my neighbours.

Finding Calm

ecades of research overwhelmingly shows that the number one factor that helps us adapt to challenging circumstances is social support.

The Power of Fun

When is the last time you had fun? I’m serious. Think about it.

How to Take a Breath

Breathing covers a spectrum of needs, and it is important to know the best way to breathe in order to meet our needs at any moment, and how best we can move through sleep, rest, activity, exercise, sport, play, work, stress, ill health and recovery.

Why First-borns Rule the World and Later-borns Want to Change It

How’s your birth order knowledge? Pretty good I suspect.

Food Isn’t Medicine

On the 16th of August 2020, Justin Bieber and I became friends.


The lions woke me up around two in the morning.